Its all hope…..and boys….and college worries

he is so perfect i cant even begin to explain it. he is smart and funny and an amazing rower. we both row and he goes to a different school but our schools our combined for rowing so i get to see him a little bit each day. i texted with him for two hours and i couldn’t stop smiling that whole entire time. he is just so amazingly perfect. i really hope that he will ask me out because i am head over heels for him. complete change of topic. i am doing really bad in honors math and i want to be a business women and i am so afraid that i wont go to a good college and that i will disappoint my family and friends. my siblings are taking three honors and i need a math tutor. and yes a lot of smart people have tutors but i just feel like since my brother and sister don’t i shouldn’t either. i did get a tutor and she is super nice and i hope i do well on my next math test so that i wont fail the course. if you guys have any suggestions for how to succeed in math, get better at it, and except myself for who i am please let me know in the comments down below.

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Its all hope…..and boys….and college worries

Am I an Embarrassment?

so today i completely failed my math class and I got none of the problems right. Everyone else seemed to be able to do it really easily and i just feel like I am worthless. My brother and sister are so good at everything they are in 3 honors courses and I am only in one and I am failing that course. I feel like I am an embarrassment to my family because they are all really smart. I really want to succeed in life. I want to be a lawyer or a psychiatrist because I want to help people and human interaction is a big passion of mine. Do you guys ever feel like you aren’t good enough for anyone? I always feel like that and it is a horrible feeling. I’m not even attractive enough to get a guy. And obviously that is not a measure and I shouldn’t care what guys think of me but I can’t help it. I care what they think of me. I don’t care what girls think about me. I just want to be that attractive, smart girl who everyone likes. If anyone has any advice I would love to hear it!

Am I an Embarrassment?

Men. Boys. Fathers. Guys.

Why do I have to be excepting of people I didn’t choose. I mean come on, did you choose your parents or step parents? I sure as hell didn’t. We are supposed to love our parents but what if the only thing keeping you together is that you need a place to live? I love my mom but my dad and I don’t get along and me and my step-dad don’t get along. I don’t know if you guys have ever felt unloved but I sure have. I don’t get along with my dad because we are so similar. you probably just read that and were like, “this bitch is weird.” yes. I. AM. WEIRD. But in a good way. I have that personality were you either love it or completely hate it. There is no in between. I can be hilarious but I can also be an ass. I have had my fair share of wanting to punch people in the face moments and I’m sure I will have a lot more and that you have had similar moments. I mean come on we all get pissed at the one person that just can’t except the fact that you really don’t like them. That is literally every popular person except for that one boy. That one boy who doesn’t go to my school yet he is still in my head 24/7. I can literally feel it driving me insane. My sister thinks he’s ugly but I think he is really hot in every way. Our relationship is just weird. Sometimes he’s looking at me non-stop and other times he’s just like, meh. It’s so annoying. I know that most of you can relate to this in some form. It’s inevitable. We all fall for that one person. That one person that makes you fall asleep thinking, what if he/she liked me? And then that leads to you imagining every impossible situation that you have ever seen in every romance movie. Imagining him sweeping you off your feet and kissing you like you are the only thing in the world. Or sitting watching the football game and eating hot wings and laughing about stuff that is just so stupid that its hilarious. Or on the other hand, if you are a guy, you probably are just imagining if you will get lucky. No offense. I’m sure that there are many decent guys and I’m just talking about the scummy ones in my grade. And you are probably thinking that I am pretty judgmental. Yes I am. But only if you have hurt someone close to me. Otherwise you can tell me anything and I will somehow relate to it. If you guys have had an experience that you want me to know about and maybe relate to, leave it in the comments and chances are I will have a story that relates!!!

Men. Boys. Fathers. Guys.

who am i?

Hi everyone I am a 14 year old girl telling you about all of the experiences of Highschool. I will be blogging about those horrible teachers that give you homework until you’re drowning, the mean kids who just can’t get enough of your pissed-off ness, and of course those extremely hot boys who have you falling onto your bed at night dreaming.

who am i?